Song Lyric of the Day

"In a town so small, there's no escape from you" -- Belle & Sebastian, "Dirty Dream #2"

I just ran into Rich's cousin and he joined me and my friend from lunch. I just e-mailed Rich to report this amusing coincidence and w/in a five line e-mail he made my blood boil. I knew I shouldn't have e-mailed him, and I did anyway ... I always do stupid shit like this because I must be a masochist. Or I have no self-control, or something. He went to New York over the weekend. I was stuck in a library the whole time.

Miami is not such a small town ... so why do I keep running into Rich's friends and family? And then be so stupid as to initiate contact with him? It only makes me unhappy/lonely/bitter/angry. And yet I do it anyway.

The sad thing is, I realized the other day that the best part about Rich was just having someone to wake up with in the morning.

How bad is that - the time you most enjoy being with someone is when there are no words involved and you are only semi-conscious?

I think that is the new standard for a bad relationship.